I think that If God is of the same essence as we are and as everything is (as I believe), then "he" loves us completely, because "he" knows all that you have done, all that you have thought, all the motives that moved you - "he" knows.

In the complete knowing, is complete understanding. In the complete understanding, is complete forgiveness. Sadness, perhaps - but never condemnation.

I do not think "he" would want you to beat yourself up, over who you are.

Strive to be better, yes. I think "he" wants that. But self-flagellation does not serve any purpose, except perhaps an incentive to come to know God and that perfect forgiveness.

There is only one energy/spirit moving in this universe. It moves you, me, everyone and everything. How could that energy condemn what it is doing? It makes very little sense to think in such ways.

I think that even the doctrine of Hell is an obstacle to overcome, to see through, because once we see through it, only then can we see God as he is.

I doubt there is any truth to "Hell". Probably as little truth as there is to "Heaven".

I think perhaps it is more accurate to think of the "past and next place" as simply "Home".