Sometimes people really believe themselves to be powerless to change their lives. To change themselves. They may begin to feel like a leaf in the wind, being blown here and there, while not having any power to change it. They are not the wind, and they can most definitively not control the wind.

When we exist in that state of powerlessness and helplessness, on some level we truly believe we won't have any power to affect any change. Isn't that so? We began feeling powerless, and the world confirmed that belief. Again and again the world confirms what we believe about ourselves.

It became a pattern, and now we believe the pattern to be the truth of the matter. "I have no power in my own life. I can not affect it, change it, I am helpless". So we are. And we can't.

Until we begin to understand that we created the conditions for our powerlessness through our sustained belief in them.

Only one thing can dissolve such sustained belief. Clarity about the mechanism that created it, because that creates the conditions for disbelief to gradually appear. And what happens when we disbelieve in our powerlessness?

Power returns.

Just moments ago, I wrote about my own powerlessness in my personal diary. Then someone on Reddit asked a question about dream control in lucid dreams and I was forced to think about these things from another angle, if I were to answer them truthfully.

So this became my answer to them. And in answering them, I may have answered myself.

I need to stop believing in my own powerlessness, and this post is the proof that I am not powerless. I can find the answers, and I can change my "waking dream", because it is a dream, and I must become aware of the conditions that create powerlessness in me, so that I can "alchemically" transmute it into power.

It seems like God answered me, through me.

Consciousness is strange. But it is fundamentally about seeing. Seeing things as they are. Seeing the dream as a dream. Seeing powerlessness as self-constructed powerlessness. It is the same. Seeing clearly. Becoming self-aware on ever deeper levels.

"Until you make the unconscious conscious, it will rule your life and you will call it fate".

Can we, if we understand that we have created our own powerlessness, realise how powerful creators we are? Can we turn that very powerlessness into a testimony to our hidden power?

The "loss of power" is only illusory. We never lost it, we only lost sight of it, through unconsciousness of it. Unconsciousness is not lucidity. It's sleep. I am not fully awake. But I am becoming more aware of that, which leads to lucidity.

In a dream, one might suddenly realise "Oh right, I am dreaming". But in the waking dream, things move more slowly. Lived experience lags behind knowledge, because it needs to be integrated. In that state of what seems like cognitive dissonance, things can feel quite.. futile. "Why does not my reality reflect what I know to be true?". But this is the phase when real change happens.

Like turning the wheel on a ship is easy, it is easy to gain knowledge. Turning the wheel on a ship is not the same as the ship turning. It takes time for the ship to align itself with the wheel. In the waking dream also, one might have the experience "Oh right, I am dreaming". But that is the wheel turning. The ship has to turn also, and in this metaphor the ship is your entire unconscious self. Which is vast.