To be alone, is a very very very painful thing. I can understand why the "first mover", the one who always has existed would fracture itself into infinite perspectives so as to experience itself and offer itself companionship.

I can understand why something which is limitless would impose upon itself limits. I only have one question really. Is there a "One" intelligence and consciousness governing everything, or is it "Oneness" where God "ceased to exist as God" when "he" became his creation ?

I do not know and that question is nagging at me because it is the difference between me being the "captain of my soul" or if "He" is. It matters, because the answer determines how I should approach life in order to do the most amount of good in the world. Trust him, or trust myself ? I guess perhaps trusting myself is trusting him.

If it is so, then it does in a sense not matter if "He" is "the captain of my soul" or if I am, since I and "He" is of the same essence and what I do he does.

I suppose therefore, what I want "Him" to be, I must also strive to be. That's why love, kindness and compassion matters.

How do you want to be met when you come face to face with yourself?